change

Sunday, March 30, 2008

I wouldn't dare say that I hate changes. PT preached a sermon on it. Change is inevitable, especially in CB. That's what SH and Kel have been reinforcing in my mind. That's something I've been taught. Still, change is not what I desire. With reference to yesterday's party, I was too shocked at the sight of so many teenagers in my cg. Left me dumbfounded, not knowing what to do. It's true that I'm not a very outspoken person. No doubt I can't play the game of guessing 'Who am I' quick enough to avoid the forfeit. You know, the game that requires you to guess the word(s) sticked to your back. The same incident happened during the hall's FOC last year. Now that I remember... M&m is similar to Pocky or Tic-tac. All damn gross, but definitely memorable.

It's time to put words into actions, with the preparation of exams at the top of the list. Prioritize and put procrastination to a halt. I need to start now, or never! Thank you PT for the message. You always speak right into my heart.

all in a stunning day

Saturday, March 29, 2008

It was a totally stunning day. Woke up before the alarm rang and before I knew it, it was time for school. Physics lecture was hard to catch, perhaps it wasn't a good idea to start with Lecture 2 when I haven't listened to the the 1st. Nothing really links. Had to eat lunch alone cos of the makeup tutorial in the afternoon, where the test script also landed up in my hands. To my horror, 42/60. Spoiler. I thought I could secure at least a 48. After that we played a memory game in pairs. Over a series of 9 games, I had perfect scores except for one. The whole class went 'WOW'. Only when the tutor said it's supposed to be played in sequence that I thought to myself, "The results are flawed." My partner and I did not follow the specific sequence. Still, I'm amazed by the results. That just proves that my STM is good, but hard to say for LTM. Ultimately, memorizing stuff should be relatively alright for me, but my concepts become messed up. That explains for the lousy scores during tests. Eh and it better improves by the exams. I wouldn't want mediocre scores. Zzz... A heavy thunderstorm when it was time to leave for the F4 party, till I was late for it. It was offering time. God, I surrender my financial needs into Your hands. The members looked at me rather indifferently, especially the new friends. Maybe I looked more 'new' than them. The last time that I saw the whole group was like...one month ago? Pathetic. Ate a hell lot cos Cass is really a good cook. I love the shepherd pies(so cheesy xD), mango jelly, potato salad, fruits fondue, curry potato bee hoon, and many more small snacks. Forfeit time was the worse. Everyone seemed to pick something more decent than mine. My task was to act as 许纯美, persuading the crowd to buy my broom. My acting is not bad, judging from their reaction. Too bad hall production closed due to some reasons. Aww wasted. I think I do have some talents there. Need to 发扬光大 and I'll achieve more results (: On a lighter note, please don't put me on Youtube. >.< That clip leaves me with no image. When I reached home, my dad told me MOE has granted funds for students between age 7 to 20. That means I'll be getting $XXX sum of money. More subsidies! School fees are so expensive, including all the daily expenses and that simply balloons to an enormous amount. I can't wait to find a job and pay off the debts. Alright it's getting very late and the sleepiness is making me blur. So that's all and have a good night, and weekend! =)

being an undergrad is demanding

Thursday, March 27, 2008

Finally a sigh of relief, or rather, a great sense of achievement. After numerous months, I managed to touch my Physics tutorial(like the 2nd most complete set out of 10). Even though fear may be a good tactic to force students to do their work, it is not necessarily the best method to do so. Right now I am doing it, but imagine a few months down the road... The answer will be an uncertainty. On the other hand, being patient to teach and eager to pass on what one knows to the students will be a better alternative. It certainly will make me feel good about studying than asking me to go and write something on the board. True lah, I think I'm quite a laid-back person. You kick, I move. You don't kick, see my mood. Ultimately, it's my loss if I screw up, and the professors still earn their pay. The problem really lies in me and my attitude and that needs to be changed. PK always teaches us, 'Your attitude determines your altitude'. Yes PK, I will bear that in mind... Especially when the examinations are just round the corner, in 19 days!

Sad... My subjects all quite cui. So 我下定决心，要好好study! The streaming talk kind of enlightened me. In order not to get into the 4th=last choice, I better STUDY!

I mean it. (x3)

While I pray for a course that I should get into... Mech(intended 1st choice)/Elec(intended 4th choice)?

You know that you're happy and you know it

Monday, March 24, 2008

All in all I've gotten these fabulous stuff:

1) Exam goodie bag - Magazines that range from Her World to Maxim, Uni pens&tapes

2) Exam supper - Donuts and Ribena drink


3) A 2008 diary (courtesy of JQ)


4) $10 worth of Pastamania vouchers for the laptop sticker


5) HAPPINESS (: - something that money can't buy

Even though it wasn't full attendance during the dinner, at least we got to try the $6 steamboat. Not a bad deal after all! I truly love the day!

Before going to school today, I went to check out the camera. Feels solid in the hand but didn't really like the black version. Damage: $499. There's this model Z100fd, looks WOW. Damage: Unknown. Maybe I should go check it out too... 8.0MP, something that I needed. F50fd is 12.0MP, seems quite unnecessary but will be good to own.

Someone questioned me, "Do you really need a camera?" I gave an outright 'YES'. It's been something that I've been longing for since Sec 1.

missing KL

Need I say anything further...

happiness unrolled

Sunday, March 23, 2008

This is my usual breakfast on a Sunday morning when I serve, bought by my welfare leader, Kel:


With an egg and a ngoh hiang/otah =)

But on this Easter Sunday, the bold and courageous Jo requested for this special menu, and here is my unusual breakfast on a Sunday morning!

HOTCAKES! ^^


What more can I ask for? Thank you GOD! Finally I get a taste of the Mac-hotcakes since 2007 semester 1. LOL! And I came to realise that the hot cakes were so-so. Now wondering why I craved so badly for it for the past 8 months. Humans are weird, especially me. HT and I laughed like nobody cared during the last drama this afternoon. The news video totally made my day! Moon-news...and the Bian-bian. ZS is the best lah! He's so funny. Thumbs up to the drama production 2008!

It's gonna get more foodie this week cos of hall's exam supper. We're having donuts! YES! Finally no more bread - hotdog bread.

digital playground

Saturday, March 22, 2008

Supposed to be studying but erm, as usual, surfing web again. Clicked around HWZ and read the forums on digital cameras and mobile phones. Looks like every handphone is imperfect! Slide phones have scratches on the back or on the keypad, touchscreen phones are over-sensitive and anger most people, 3g phones eat up too much battery compared to a 2.5g. Looks like I should keep to my black and sturdy k750i in the meantime. Seriously there's no good models now. Probably end of the year?

The other part on cameras, a fight between Canon and Fujifilm. o.O. FinePix F50fd looks good for its price. Canon is still the classic quality brand though. The Ixus 860IS or 950IS. But I heard that the lens will become black cos of the carbon or something. For the happiness during hall events and MI events...I want my own digital camera!!!

Good Friday

Jesus Christ descended to the dead and on the Third Day, He rose again. Today He is still alive, reigning in riches and glory. I'm exceedingly thankful for His mercy and grace, especially on this day that is Good Friday, as Christians all around the world celebrate Easter in their local churches.

Drama in church was good, cos of the concept that's really fresh and new. A hi-tech gadget that stores memories, allowing people to view their past, be it happy or sad events. Other than the idea being unethical since it infringes human rights, it would be something good to have, if let's say, someone loses his/her memory in a car accident and the gadget will come in handy for recollection of events that happened in the past. Technology can make or break? During the first service, I was busy preparing for the second service, so didn't catch the full drama. Only until the second service did I truly comprehend the story and received PK's sermon with much understanding. Message was good. PT also preached well. On the way home, I heard this line 'PT's becoming more good-looking.' Haha, I AGREE!

The first service WM and I did better. Or rather, I screwed up a bit during the second part. Was following the sequence till KW sang a different part from what I was flashing and I was stunned for a second. That's one mistake. Lesson relearned: Play-by-ear. Then came another error which I felt was more grave than the previous: Flashed the line only after the 4th line was being sung. OMG. Total madness! I actually searched for the wrong song. To make things worse, WM didn't help me at all when he knew what the song was. -___-|"""" It was only when I asked him then he told me...Ya, he knew the song and didn't tell me what I needed to know. Such good teamwork leh. Luckily SH didn't scold or blame me, even asking me not to think of it since it's over(which I agree with it. Who wants to think of their mistakes?) I'm very much thankful for such encouraging leaders that I aspire to be like one. Being an encourager. Yea I can be one from this day on. Virtuous cycle!

TIRED! Need to catch some sleep. The 3am-7am sleep hours need to undergo some adjustments or my grades will continue to drop. Oh push it up like a push-up bra please. =X Then there's this test that's coming up next week... Aw...

My phone lagged while sending 10 smses at one go. Is that a hint? You know, Starhub is offering very attractive student plan only for new customers. Been so excited over phone deals this past month. Haiz. Don't they know what is customer retention? Launching into the market to secure a larger market share by competing with SingTel seems hard so they'd rather lose the existing customers and go for the new subscribers. Now the existing customer needs to cancel the old line in order to capture the new line benefits. But I don't wanna pay for a new SIM and registration fee. Yes, unwilling to the MAX man. My wanted list is already making me figure out where to get the money from to get my hands on those. If only I can get picked to win the 1st/2nd/3rd/consolation prize for VC07, since the video advertisement that I voted for won the 1st prize!

Existing vs New
1) 1000 smses vs 2000 smses
2) 100 minutes vs 200 minutes
3) Paying for caller-id vs 12 months of caller-id
4) $0 with free upgrade to USIM vs $36.75 for new SIM+registration
5) Current number vs Change of handphone number
Point 5 is a hassle.

Which is better?

unforgettable experiences

Friday, March 21, 2008

It was definitely a terrifying experience for me last night. Having gone for the musician practice where only 4 of us were there, I was the first to leave the hall since the travelling bit was too hard to bear. After walking through the backyard of hall one, till hall two there, I discovered that it would be easier and faster if I were to take bus from the bus-stop in front of hall one. Stupid me. So I followed the path and to the quiet stretch of road. Ooh a shortcut! The hypotenuse!

It looks like this:

SHORTCUT - SUPER DARK AND MOIST PATH

I'll make sure I won't walk that way again. The journey to hall one was already a nightmare. As I walked from hall two to hall one, the place was dark and the only sound that can be heard is from the TV. It was so duper quiet and suddenly the TV ad plays and I had the shock of my life. One thing is that there's nobody around. To add on, that mystified sound that came from the TV. Also, the front doors were all locked. I never want to go back to hall one at night again!!!!!!!!!! To my relief, I saw two other members finding their way into the hall too. So thankful that I eventually found my way in through the back entrance. That seriously calmed me down.

And so tomorrow is EASTER!! *beams(:

Putting that aside, it dawned on me I'm a morning person. Yes... That means in the morning, I'm more alert than at any other times of the day, for example, at night. While I'm typing this, my mind seems to be drifting to popo/lala-land already without realizing it. Sleep is kicking in anytime from now. There's this to mention. Being such a lazy student, my lagging tutorials have landed me in deep trouble this morning. Our beloved physics tutor decided to use a new approach by asking each person to either draw FBD or write equations on the board. If you failed to do that, he'll say "You're wasting everybody's time." Oh yea, and not to mention all the other remarks which students wouldn't want/like to hear when it's only the foundation year. Think about this: If you have a weak foundation, how are you going to cope with the advanced levels of study in the future? In order to grasp the concepts right, the tutor plays an important role to both guide and motivate students to achieve results and cultivate interest in the subject. Sadly, my tutor either doesn't understand this or it's really my class. It's our fault for being less smart than previous batches of students.

Rainy thoughts

Wednesday, March 19, 2008

It is raining almost every Wed. Aw. When you know that you still have got a lot of undone tutorials, and lagging behind real badly, the rain makes things worse. Cos you know you can't go into lalaland. Grr. Formally skipped marketing class today and spent the time in hall reading the small blue book of 'Rethinking Marketing'. Looks like I'm not such a bad student after all. Oops. Trying to cover up my mistake... Sigh, I guess I really need to sleep on a regular basis, as in the timing is all wrong right now. No more 3 a.m., especially when class starts at 8.30 a.m. the following day? It's possible.

Maths test was alright, since Taylor didn't come out. But I still forgot how to do the quiz question. I need to be grounded. Come on, practice makes perfect! Practise more can... >.< That applies to physics as well. Another 'lagging like mad' subject.

Kel smsed this morning saying there's a musician practice this evening. Felt a little unwilling to go at first cos of the travelling part, to-and-fro, west-to-east. Furthermore, I wonder what time it'll end(knowing it'll most probably start later than the stipulated time), plus tomorrow is another 8.30 a.m. day. At least Fri is off, Good Friday! PTL! Alright lah, the practice is to prepare for Fri's services. Go go go! Now I'm left with one hour to decide if I should have my dinner or not before leaving this lovely cosy room for the big and cold hall in the far east.

KL's leaving for a faraway land in the months to come. I feel numbed.

ups and downs

Am listening to 家883FM and it's playing this rather emo song: Rainie's 理想情人
Stirs my thoughts to think of the scenes in the <恶魔> show, of how Mike treated Rainie and vice versa. My heart is entangled, again. It doesn't help a lot walking up and down the block, hanging out laundry, then to notice what should be there and yet isn't there. I just wished that time could pass faster, but crap, my maths is still like hanging there. What the Taylor's formula man. And my left eye hurts. Nothing gets better. Even the buses wouldn't come for the past two days. The average waiting time was like 20 minutes.

"Always remember to forget the things that made you sad, but never forget to remember the things that made you glad."

What can I say other than God is good... Even though I don't quite like the voucher compared to iPod shuffle/Capital vouchers.

life is amazing

Tuesday, March 18, 2008

Yesterday I was in such good mood for blogging, on the verge of resetting up a new blog. In the end I didn't but it was alright. At least it's been done now. Time seriously flies in school that I don't know how to describe it. And there's this maths test tomorrow. Grr. Obviously I've been lagging behind again, drowned in that sea of incomplete tutorials. It feels sad. I hate it cos my parents trust me so much; they gave me a lot of freedom and also the permission to go on this overseas trip that might have been impossible. By God's grace, the impossible became possible. And it shall be proven again, in the area of studies, the impossible shall become possible. AMEN!

After this semester there would be the special term, which should be a long holiday for me if not for my friends who are all considering to clear some modules during the S term. I didn't think so much of it. After exams, it's supposed to be holidays? And holidays should be spent on enrichment courses, some shopping sprees, more fellowship with the people around me, and also to find a job to earn some quick bucks! Who would have thought of studying even during the special term... After all, when I pass all my subjects this semester, I'd have cleared 4 electives which is ahead of most people who only cleared 2. Though the minor part does make me worry a little... Additional 3 modules aw. Still, after seeing what is being offered this S term, I'm pretty interested in languages, especially the Korean class. It has been something that I want to take since JC/secondary times, with that Korean wave that struck here long ago. Here's a chance, 'free' cos it's been included in the humongous fees so shouldn't I try to apply for it? After weighing the pros and cons, like inability to take up an office-hour job, it still leaves me unsure of whether to apply or not. It's 50% chance of getting a place in the course anyway. Yea maybe no harm trying. Whether I get it or not depends on whether God wants to grant it to me or not... Korean class/job(extra income)? Hard decision.

To add on, it's a lonely evening today. A totally opposite from last Tues when four groups of people approached me for dinner. It's a total disappointment today with no one is available for dinner. Sigh. But thank you Jesus for my neighbour yingy. She sent me a sms asking if I wanted dinner at the most crucial moment. Becos Easter is so near, many cell groups are actually fasting today and I was so tired that I fell asleep on the bed. When I woke up it was total madness. Actually thought it was morning already -.- Then the hunger pangs hit me, making me so blur in the head, and my head was really spinning very badly. Alas 30 minutes later and came a knock on my door. My bbq chicken set meal!!! It's Korean food, lol. Now I wonder if there's any link between the class and the food. Gobbled it up immediately and now I feel so contented and satisfied and I can only say 'Thank you JESUS!' and also to yingy(:

Now OEC is confirmed. Korean class is unconfirmed. Year 2 streaming is unconfirmed. MY prayer frequency needs to go up! And I'm all excited for the Easter production. My head is no longer spinning, no dizziness. Clear in the mind! WOOHOO.