the change

Monday, May 12, 2008

I chanced upon a blog of a fellow church member. Oh yes the church is so big that I wouldn't know the person except that she's as old as me, and received Christ roughly two months later than me. Hey it impacted me a lot. In her post dated roughly two years back, it was written like this:

im still so lyk a indecisive n blur ger im so not mentally prepared to take up der responsibilities of a christian not say to even hold der title of christian i dont recognise mieself as a christian until a day i truely open to god i realli dun care how mani ppl there regard mie as christian i noe im still not one. lastly, i wanna ask. i tot christianality is FREEWILL?! okie. drop tat. it troubles mie.

But look at the change in this person right now, in a recent entry:

I see the burden you have carried always. Receive My Peace. Receive it. Receive the serenity that is about to come. Receiveee. Save the members of My family and I will save yours. Your mother's household will turn their faces to me, your father's household will turn their faces to me, and your husband's household shall all be saved. The medium, who brought you to me, he will also walk back to me. But behold. There's always a price that you have to pay, a sacrifice that you have to bring to me. I want your Youth, the days of your life before before you turn 21. In the years to come, you will have to go through trials and tribulations that you might have heard of or that you might not expect. But run with the vision of your loved ones getting saved; That I will fulfill My promise in your life too. ♥ This heavy burden, I know its lifted up in good hands. I couldn't be more thankful. Its not of human wisdom of what is to come. But Father, I trust that You have alr brought me and my family to the land You promised. To the land of overflowing milk and honey. I love SOT. A place where I get to know God even more :)

SOT. WA! During one of the nights in hall, the few of us spoke of it but we all felt that the time is not right till we graduate. Or rather, perhaps the time is still not right. God hasn't spoken to my heart. I feel the need to pray. Pray in order to communicate with God. Without prayer, it's like not having air to breathe. Let me suffocate for all the times that I failed to pray then. Only give me the air when I pray. I NEED revelations.