drastic change

Saturday, April 5, 2008

The past two days have been quite a rush till the point that they really drove me crazy. Now my MSN nick says "schizophrenia; disorganized thinking". Test stress has driven me insane. What about exam stress... >.< Physics quiz was totally bad, yes bad. With 4 MCQs and 1 structured questions, I still found it tougher than the previous one with 3 MCQs and 2 structured questions. Cannot lah. Wake up, wake up! While attempting to prepare for a Psy taboo game, I was picking out the words in the glossary section of the textbook, only to realise today's tutorial isn't totally on the game itself, but we went through exam questions in the first hour. I forgot totally about it! Past year exam questions? Preparation for class? Feel so down during the two full hours in the room. Had a hard time concentrating in class with insufficient sleep.

Studying won't get me 'A's. The trick is to study smart, be consistent and hardworking. Obviously such a practice hasn't been adopted that now it gets panicky with 10 days and counting down...

But really thankful for the Word during CG meeting tonight. It was truly a word in season, a word from heaven. Although it's entitled "Praise is a sacrifice", it's the content that enlightened me, especially this verse from the Bible...

Yea, though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death,
I will fear no evil;
For You are with me;
Your rod and Your staff, they comfort me.
-Psalms 23:4(NKJV)

The tangible presence of God was felt throughout the meeting. We spent a great deal of time singing a new song to God, which I felt was very well-implemented by HT. For myself, I took a step of faith to switch from singing in tongues to singing in words, something that hasn't been done before. Despite a small attendance rate, the whole meeting was definitely one of the best in my 2.5 years walk. Now I'm empowered to move on. Even though it's racing against time, He who is greater in me is greater than he who is in the world. If I focus on what I need to do, I can do it! After all, SH once sent me an SMS saying I've been faithful in serving. The same anointing shall be upon me when I mug!

Now it's a totally different feeling from last night. WOW. And I shall end here... No more schizophrenia; disorganized thinking. Full stop.